Imperfect theories

I've been noodling about with an imperfect theory for ages now, turning it over in my mind, unable to make it work but unwilling to let it go.

I had a thought that really the best thing we can do is make the best of what we are given. So in any given moment, have a job and enjoy that job. Go and see a movie and enjoy that movie. Live in a house and enjoy that house. But as my Zen-Like Friend reasonably pointed out (damn you, reason, damn you), that implies that you shouldn't then be grasping for anything else. So, essentially, you're living in a house with a bunch of morons, but you're making the best of what you're given, so you have to enjoy that house, really make it work for you, rather than frantically finding a different job and saving like mad in order to escape the house you're supposed to be making the best of.

You should just be happy with what you have.

I'm not sure where to go from there. Are the ideas of being happy with what you have and working for something better mutually exclusive? Should they be?

This brings me to another theory I used to have, which is that the ultimate goal should be contentment. The moment you feel content is the highest achievement the world can offer. The Best Friend called that boring.

So now I have two imperfect theories, and a desperate desire to move, and I only know what I know: that I'm coming up to a year of living in Milton Keynes and while I dislike it for so many reasons, I have a wonderful job, a good salary, and a great car, and those three things make everything else less, well, shitty.

I don't know. I really don't.

I'll tell you what you can do with your Wavin' Flag

Has any song ever had lyrics more inane than the Football World Cup song?

"We all say/When I get older I will be stronger/They’ll call me freedom/Just like a wavin’ flag/And then it goes back"

What?

Tropic Thunder

I was going to say that this was the best movie that Tom Cruise has ever made, but then I remembered I love Jerry Maguire. But the latter is despite Tom Cruise, rather than because of. So I stand by my opinion, Tropic Thunder is the best movie Tom Cruise has ever made.

In which I survey my kingdom

About the only good thing about the house I live in is that I have double doors that go out onto the patio. The patio looks out onto a half mown lawn because my landlord got bored half way through mowing it. But I'm definitely thinking that on Friday, when I get paid, I'm going to invest in some patio furniture. So while I don't actually have my own place, at least I'll have some furniture to take with me.

Oh wait, I forgot about my three bookshelves. They'll go with me too.

Oh, and I have the chair I'm sitting in.

And a green footstool.

So I have three bookshelves, an armchair, a green footstool and some patio furniture.

Wow, am I all grown up or what?

Dear Mr Twat in the BMW

I was not going slowly! I was going 60! I probably should only have been going 50. So please slow down, do not follow me, and do not attempt to cut me off at the roundabout.

Liz

I think I might be the only person in the world who actually likes the new Doctor Who

I can't help myself, but I do. I don't think the writing has been as top notch as it could have been - some of the plots are just wound up way too easily - but I've enjoyed most of this season.

But the Pandorica...I'm really interested to see how they resolve that one.

Tales from The Nephew's world

I spent my holiday last week taking care of the ever more precocious Nephew. He was in fine form - everything was either amazing, terrible, heartbreaking or boring. No middle ground with this kid. I enjoyed it, but man am I knackered.

Some gems included us going on "a bear hunt". Cue Auntie Elize's flat rendition of Teddy Bears' Picnic, which had to be sung multiple times. Then I tried to get him turned around so we could get home, and had to pretend to see a bear wearing trousers and a hat disappearing into the distance.

"NO, Auntie Elize, my sense of direction says the bear when that way," he answered, pointing in the direction he wants to go in. No, no, no, I say, my sense of direction says he really did go round the corner towards home. Eventually he agreed and I mumbled: "I've got your sense of direction right here." "No! Give it back! I need my sense of direction."

We then went to The Parents' place, so he got to hold my ipod and skip the songs he didn't like (all of them). But then he got to Wagner's Ride of the Valkyries, which he immediately fell in love with. "Let's listen to that scary song again. I like scary songs. Where's the scary song? Is there a scary person in the scary song? On the television, there's a scary person in the scary movie. Let's listen to the scary song. Oh, that's very scary. I like being scared. I can't hear the scary song. Make it loud! No that's too loud. Oh, the scary song is done, let's listen to it again."

On the way to The Parent's place in Reading, you have to cross a teeny little toll bridge over the Thames, in a town called Pangbourne (it's gorgeous there). Anyway, I couldn't find my wallet and I didn't have the 40p toll loose with me, so the woman let me through. I told her I'd pay double when I came back through (and which I did).

"Auntie Elize! You didn't pay the lady! That's wrong, you were supposed to give the lady the money! Why didn't you give her the money?"

Then, when he saw The Father: "Hi Papa! Auntie Elize didn't pay! That's wrong, isn't it?"

Tattle-tailing little brat.

The biggest reason why living with somone wouldn't be such a bad idea

If I woke up starving on a Saturday morning, but too lazy to do anything about it, he would be conveniently placed to make me french toast and a cup of tea.

Lessons I have learned from sushi

1) Wearing a white shirt is always a bad idea.

2) Nigiri falls apart when you forget it in the bowl of soya sauce because you're reading.

3) Too much ginger can give your tongue blisters.

4) Count the dishes as you go.

5) The good stuff always appears on the conveyer belt as you're getting up to leave.

Greeting the morning with a song

Or should I say, an earsplitting rendition of Fall at Your Feet by Crowded House. I wish I could sing, but I can't. I am very, very atonal, flat, and can't keep to a melody to save my life. It's like one of those cartoons, where I open my mouth and all these little crooked notes come out in a speech bubble and then all the windows shatter.

But I do love a good song, and singing along to a good song, and no-one can hear me in the car. I hope. At least I didn't do jazz hands. That would have been unsafe.

Banks are the Enemy

Arrgghh! Stupid bank!

I have two accounts with my bank, and they're interconnected.Two weeks ago I cancelled the debit card on one, because I got paranoid about Amazon. No problem, Ms Ellis, we'll issue you a new one and you'll have it within 5 working days. Two weeks later and the card isn't here, in the mean time I've been using the debit card on the second card. Today I called the bank to say that the replacement card hadn't arrived. No problem, they say, we'll cancel the card we ordered and order you a new one to go straight to the bank branch, that'll keep it safe. That'll take 5 working days. Wonderful.

So this evening I toddled to the atm to get out a little money, and...yes...that's right...those idiots have cancelled the card for the second account. So now I have no debit cards. I can go into the branch tomorrow with two forms of ID and a statement and plead my case. The new card will be with me in...5 working days.

I'm betting right now that they've managed to order cards for the same account.

Idiots!

Note to Self

Find spellcheck on Blogger and USE it.

Three years

Today, I've been in the UK for three years. I've moved a lot, seen more of my family, met a lot of people, liked some of them enough to make proper friends with, cemented older friendships, seen a lot of movies, read a lot of books, worked at a lot of jobs, and travelled quite a bit.

I've also lost a perfect job, been on disasterous dates, lived with some very unpleasant people, and been diagnosed with an incurable disease.

But today, today is the point. Today I'm happy. Today I'm looking forward and backward with equal amusement, and my anxiety is only a tiny voice in the background. Today I think about all the good things, and ignore the bad things. Today I decided to stop looking back quite so much, because even when you're looking back with no regrets, too much introspection gives you a migraine and a vague feeling of discontent.

Today is the day that matters. Tomorrow will take care of itself.

Monday politics

I just had a fun morning - last Friday an email went round saying that a senior cabinet minister would be delivering a speech on the economy this morning on campus, and to apply if we wanted tickets. I did that, and got my confirmation this morning, and went off to the university library to find the place crawling with journalists and police, because it was the prime minister.

Of course, the speech was basically his version of the old song, We're Screwed, So Screwed, So Very Very Screwed, with a rousing chorus of It's Not Our Fault We Have To Make Major Cuts, Blame Gordon Brown, but it was fascinating to watch. A good start to Monday!

Surreal conversations with The Sister via Facebook

21:40 Juanita

hi, do you have mum and dads home number please? also, did i leave my charger there? (possibly plugged in behind your bed side table)

i know you are thinking it's typical!! haha

21:41 Me

It's 123456789

And yes

:)

21:42 Juanita

pants. thanks

21:42 Me

have you ever watched peep show?

it's brilliant, really brilliant.

21:44 Juanita

nope, is it worth a look is it?

21:44 Me

it's on 4OD on youtube, and I would definitely look.

But then, I have a deep and abiding love for David Mitchell.

Who I think I may be turning into.

Why am I turning into a 40 year old man?

Why?

21:45 Juanita

ha!

21:45 Me

No!

Not ha!

No, no, Elize, don't be silly.

You're not turning into a 40 year old male comedian.

You're imagining things.

not HA!!!

21:46 Juanita

i dont think you are turning into a man, whatever you may think

21:47 Me

Thank you.

21:47 Juanita

i am multi tasking and talking to mum so i cant type lots.

21:47 Me

No, that's fine.

21:47 Juanita

i will reassure you properly in a minute :):)

21:48 Me

Too late!

21:48 Juanita

don't be like that

21:48 Me

Sniff!

21:49 Juanita

boo-friggin-hoo :-)

It's raining

Fat drops of cool water on a warm afternoon. It's not dark, or overcast, the water is just falling from a perfect summer sky.

I love the rain, because it feels a little like a miracle every time it falls. Because it has a hundred faces, and as many emotions. The water falls and we receive the smell and luxury that comes with it.

But rain always makes my heart ache. I never feel more alone than when it rains. I stand on a balcony, or a stoop, or a street, with my hand stretched out, feeling the cold drops land.

Romance

"I'm not a romantic. I'm very practical."

"[You're] an insatiable romantic. A woman who combs her hair on a moonlit beach, wears filmy white, and treasures a valueless memento thrives on romance."

"I also clip coupons and watch my cholesterol."

Nora Roberts - The Right Path

Last night's episode of Dr Who

Mawkish, very mawkish indeed.

It's time for another Ipod 10-Track Experiment

Recently someone told me I had a lot of love songs on my ipod. This is more amusing than the person who told me this possibly realised, as The Best Friend, who has long bemoaned my ability to turn even the happiest song into a funeral march, can attest. But in the interests of scientific research, I have dusted off Der Fuhrer's Ipod 10-Track Experiment in order to come to an unbiased, objective opinion.

And so the 10 randomly shuffled songs are:

1) She's Got Her Ticket - Tracy Chapman
2) Superfly - Harris Tweed
3) Doo Be Doo - Freshlyground
4) I Have a Dream - ABBA
5) Portions for Foxes - Rilo Kiley
6) I Stand Corrected - Vampire Weekend
7) All You Wanted - Michelle Branch
8) Scarborough Fair - Simon and Garfunkel
9) Poker Face - Lady Gaga
10) Feels Like Home - Chantal Kreviazuk

Ok, ok, that last song is pretty sappy. So sue me!

Gone

the wind
took you to where
It wanted to
go.

it swept your self
to hidden
places
away
from the place you called home.

it swept your self
and it took you
and it left you
here.
here.
here.

where nothing grows,
but those who cling
Live.

Deepest Devon (or, The Mysterious Invisible Puffins)

On Friday morning I hit the road for a visit in Deepest Devon, to see my Zen-like Friend and take a trip to Lundy Island, a tiny spit of land off the coast, famous for its views, deer, feral goats, ponies, and birds, including puffins – more on that later.

I left pretty early, and a good thing too, since I managed to take a wrong turn almost immediately. But I managed to reorient myself and trundled on down south, singing at the top of my lungs and watching the scenery get greener and more interesting. I decided to ignore the satnav in favour of a more circuitous, scenic route. So I got off the motorway near Bristol and then headed for Minehead, and Lynton, and then cut away from the coast (so blue!) and into Exmoor via Porlock (so steep!). I was thrilled to see the ponies, most of them with foals alongside, and the view was just astounding. I stopped at one point to try and get a picture, but it was impossible to capture.

I eventually managed to find Woolacombe, which is where we were camping, and sat in the sun reading while I waited for my friend to arrive. After he got there we had a much needed cup of tea and then we were off. We headed on a short walk down the road, where I met my first stile (Sidenote: Stiles are not made for short people, with short legs, and a complete lack of grace). There were some funky sheep, who stared at us with blind panic in their sheepy eyes, but there were also more ponies! And some paragliders! And a sparrowhawk! And ponies!

 Ponies!

Years ago, my family travelled around the UK in a camper as part of a holiday. Apparantly I have been to nearly all the places I visited this past weekend before, I just don't remember any of it. Probably because I was reading my way through a Five Find Outers and Dog book, but that's neither here nor there. Anyway, I did remember the ponies, and it was lovely to see them again in their scruffy glory.

I also got my first sighting of Lundy, where we were heading on Saturday, which filled me with glee.

We then headed back and went down the town of Woolacombe, sourced some lunch in the shape of pasties (I thought they were called tiddyoggies when in Devon, but apparantly not), and then trekked up the hill to Mortehoe, which was very rugged and cool. We spent ages spotting some oystercatchers, which are about as cute as you get in the bird world, and I got to turn down that page in my birdbook, which is always satisfying. 

Mortehoe

And then it was dinner in a jampacked Croyde, and my first glimpse of Saunton Sands, which was as beautiful as any of the beaches at home, just about half the size. We stopped on a cliff road overlooking the beach, and it instantly became my favourite spot.

We had a little time for stargazing (red, red moon) but we had to be up at o dark thirty to catch the ferry to Lundy.

Woke up the next morning to rain, of course. It was a weirdly cold, warm, misty, windy, rainy, drizzly, freaky kind of day. It was very atmospheric and I loved Lundy like that, but it would be super to see it in the sunshine. But I'm getting ahead of myself.

A short essay on puffins: there's all this hype about how Lundy is a puffin haven. It's on all the brochures, and all the tickets, and on the websites and everything. Until we got to the booking office to board and my friend read a different poster that said that ACTUALLY there are only three pairs of puffins on the whole island, so ACTUALLY we would be pretty lucky to spot any of them (we didn't, as it happened).

PA is displeased with false advertising ("I don't act for cameras!")

But we didn't let the false advertising get us down, and after agreeing to lie but how we had spotted a puffin even though we hadn't (it was THIS big! And it had RAZOR teeth!), we boarded the ferry. And got very, very wet. We had the Guardian with us and decided to sacrifice the money, sport and jobs sections for something dry to sit on. Eventually we headed upstairs and I found the perfect spot to lean against the railing and rock backwards and forwards as we went through the rough water. It was so cold and blowy, but it felt energising. And then out of nowhere some small dolphins appeared and they began playing alongside the ferry. For ages they were jumping through the surf and the wash, and we could see them cruising along under the water. They looked so happy, I guess, and carefree. It was almost as if we had an escort.

 On the ferry and on Lundy

And then we finally got to the island, which rises suddenly from the water. Sheer, sheer cliffs, with that ominous, exciting look that you expect of tiny islands. We had been spotting lots of birds as we came over on the ferry, but the island itself is a bird paradise. We saw shags, Manx shear-waters, cormorants, oyster-catchers, razorbills, and guillemots. It was thrilling really. We glanced briefly at the buildings (a castle, a pub, a church, a lighthouse – all will need to be explored in more depth on another visit) but hellbent on finding our puffin we hit the trails immediately. We basically walked the island along its edges, getting blown to pieces by the wind, getting drenched by the mist. But it was so much fun, and I only twisted both of my ankles twice. And gracelessly clambered over two more stiles. We spotted the deer, ponies and feral goats, we even spotted some seals, but the puffins remained determinedly out of reach. Better luck next time, I guess. Nobody seems to have heard of Lundy much, and I don't know why, because it's an idyll. My friend commented that it was like a retreat. I'd really love to go back and stay there for a few days, and walk every inch of the place,and hopefully see it in some sunshine.

We all boarded again and headed back to Bideford on the mainland, and spent the whole return journey waiting for more dolphins to appear (and eavesdropping on the conversation of the two older women sitting next to us – one was telling the other about how her husband proposed, and her parents weren't happy because he was a soldier, it was quite amusing). We landed and headed back to the campsite.

I was due to leave on Sunday, so we stuck close to home, and took a shorter hike through the surrounding farmland. We stopped to catch our breath and say hello to a little shetland pony called Archie, and took our ease on a bench, and then got so caught up in identifying some house martins and some swallows, we got nicked for trespassing. She was pretty nice about it though, and told us about the other birds she'd spotted, but we did hasten on our way. Up. The. Longest. Hill. Ever. And then when we made it to the top of the hill, I got myself stranded in a massive boggy patch. I was in knee deep, and managed to leave a shoe behind after my friend gave me a heave out of there. I tried not to think too hard about what else was inside the mud, but it smelt fabulous. Sigh. That's me. Always smooth.

Anyway, we headed out shortly after, and got some Rick Stein recommended fish and chips (scampi for me), and watched some kids muck about a skateboarding ramp. We headed down to the beach then so my friend could go surfing. I watched and wandered along the sand and got myself quite homesick, with the smell and the sounds.

And then I got in my car and drove back, feeling satisfied and happy and content and sad all at the same time. I always feel a little flat after going somewhere new, because I always expect myself to be new too. I think it's also that I've been looking forward to this trip for ages, and now I need something new to look forward to. I love this part of being a grown up. It makes it all worthwhile.

Insurance

Him: It's looking nice and sunny for your arrival!

Me: Excellent! We may need to sacrifice a small child to Ra every day this week, just to be on the safe side.

Him: Consider it done.

This moment

I was sitting at my computer at work, editing some courses that need updating. As I was unravelling the XML (stupid farking XML), something caused me to think about a friend, which in turn made me think of Rhodes, and suddenly I had a little vision of my 21-year-old self, walking the streets of Grahamstown, sitting in lectures, and getting merry at Friar Tucks. It seems so impossible that that person was me, but it was me.

It was so long ago, and just an instant ago. And I thought, I existed in that moment. Now I exist in this moment. All I know is that I have a memory of prior moments. A long chain of moments, some of them clear, some of them hazy (and getting hazier by the moment).

Seeing The Sister in the hospital nursery. Seeing a 50 pence coin for the first time. Photos on the first day at school. Camping on empty beaches. Walking on the firing range at school. Getting detention. Getting an A for the first time. Being told to stop breathing, or else, by someone at school. Having my first dance to Please Forgive Me, by Bryan Adams. Getting all my hair cut off and getting contact lenses. Going to see You've Got Mail, over and over again. Singing the Happy Birthday song at Spur, over and over again. Finishing Matric, R500 richer. Sitting in my room in Beit after my parents left, wondering what the hell came next. Being shmoozed by an oily guy with a borrowed guitar. Having The Best Friend rescue me when oily guy dumped me right before my first journ exam. Obsessing over someone I couldn't have. Staring at the ceiling of my first digs, with Siska lying on the bed next to me, silently supportive. Staring at the ceiling for days, wondering if this was it. Sitting in Michael the Therapist's office. Being told over and over again that I have the right to my feelings, that I don't have to feel guilty. Cutting someone off. Falling down the stairs in Friar Tucks. Wishing I had the strength to take myself out of an equation. Driving home from Rhodes for the last time, with all my worldly possessions in a bakkie. Stopping for biltong at Storms River Mouth and remembering four years earlier. Going to Newlands for the first time with The Father, and watching Jacques Kallis score a century. The Mother forcing me to apply for the position at The Southern Cross, even though it was the closing date. Going for the interview and thinking shiiiiiiiiit. Finishing my first day at work, and thinking, so this is it then: working life. Listening to shit loads of illegal music. Eating a lot of sushi. Hurting my back and getting my driver's licence, despite being barely able to walk. Going to see Counting Crows by myself at the Vellodrome and seeing Marissa for the first time in years, and rekindling an old friendship. Saying goodbye to The Mother at the airport. Saying goodbye to The Father at the airport. Having my first Christmas with The Best Friend's family and playing 30 Seconds. Learning Tai Chi. Seeing My Family at Gatwick. Feeling Jamie kicking in utero. Standing at the top of the Eiffel Tower with Rob. Saying goodbye to My Family at Gatwick. Making it all the way to the passport checkpoint before crying and then crying all the way home. Saying goodbye to Siska in her crate. Doing Karaoke in Stardust and laughing my arse off. Meeting a new person, who was there and then was gone. Selling all my books. Putting my hand on a bible and swearing allegiance to Queen and Country. Leaving Cape Town for the last time and feeling a pang of, now what? Kayaking on the lagoon in Maputo. Eating my weight in prawns. Bribing our way over the border. Getting my passport. Phoning The Sister to tell her I'll be arriving the day after tomorrow. Getting a taxi all the way from Heathrow to Reading, because I was that desperate to just get going. Surprising The Mother and The Father. Meeting Jamie for the first time and him holding out his arms for me to pick him up. Waking up with pins and needles, and thinking that's weird. Going for the interview in London and thinking, that's the job. Commuting for hours and hours and hours and hours, through the longest winter of my life. Watching the doctors put electrodes on my feet and trying to get a nerve reaction. Thinking: uh oh. Getting a diagnosis. Being more freaked out than anticipated. Living with a psycho bitch. Seeing Counting Crows and Goo Goo Dolls in Hyde Park. Moving into my own flat. Buying up books to replace the ones I sold. Having The Best Friend visit for a lovely long holiday. Being done, done, done with the magazine. Having consolatory margheritas with Hayley. Getting the Perfect Job. Having the the Perfect Job go under. See The Hellmouth for the first time and think: uh oh. Sit at Retail Company and bang head against desk repeatedly. Doing many, many, many crosswords. Doing the reading at The Sister and The BIL's wedding and making it all the way to the end before losing my composure completely. Still being at Retail Company and slowly losing the will to live. Saying goodbye. Having Jamie tell me: "Auntie Elize, I luff you." Going to see The Lion King, and drinking far too much red wine with Hayley. Watching food porn. Buying a car. Going for the interview at University. Getting the job.

And here I am. In this moment.

Book Meme

Take the nearest book next to you and answer the following questions:

(I really should have done this meme earlier this week, when I was reading something slightly more edifying.)

Title and Author:
True Betrayals by Nora Roberts

Is the book dedicated to anyone? If so, whom?
To Phyllis Grann and Leslie Gelbman

What is the first sentence?
When she pulled the letter from her mailbox, Kelsey had no warning it was from a dead woman.

Turn to page 47. Please share the first sentence of the first full paragraph.
"Miss Naomi's down to the stables."

A very, very long time ago

When I was about four or five, we lived in a tiny town in the middle of nowhere. It wasn’t even in the middle of nowhere, it was on the dim outskirts of nowhere, at the end of a dirt road going to the middle of nowhere.

I couldn’t be further from this place if I tried, but for some odd reason, the smell of Buckinghamshire in May is giving me olfactory nostalgia. There’s this insistent scent of mown grass, daisies, slow moving water, and, perhaps most mystifying of all, pomegranates.

Pomegranates.

Inexplicable.

The Lego Gasman Cometh

Long December

Spring, originally uploaded by liz_isabella.

"I can't remember all the times I tried to tell myself to hold onto these moments as they pass." Counting Crows - Long December

Bridging the gap

Sometimes I wish I was a character in a book that I was reading. It would be so much easier to see, in black and white, what people are thinking. What they see when they look at you. It would be so much easier to live up to other people's expectations if I could see them written down - it would be so much easier to live up to my own expectations then too.

I write so many scenes in my head, and have so many conversations with people there - people I know, and people I've made up. If you know me in life, you've probably featured in something I've dreamed up. I argue with people there, and laugh with them, and tell them I love them, or I hate them, or I admire them, or I never want to speak to them again.

And then I meet them in the here and now, and they're real people, with their own inner lives.

And once again I'm left with the feeling that the older we get, the more like islands we become.

Quietly sealing parts of ourselves off from the outside, lest we lose them forever.

Notes from the peanut gallery

I fully cop to the fact that I'm...well, not a political geek, but a "way things work and seeing these things acted out in front of me" geek. So I've been in my element this last week. First voting, which I love to do, and then watching the results come in, which is always enjoyable, and then seeing the politicians and media handle the hung parliament, which was fascinating.

And in spite, or maybe because of, the coalition - although we don't know all the details yet, and I reserve the right to change my mind later this week - I'm glad I voted for the LibDems. I've been impressed with the way Nick Clegg has handled himself (although I was unimpressed by the fact that they had been having talks with Labour, that didn't sit well).

This has been my first real exposure to an election process here. Shortly after I moved here, Tony Blair resigned and Gordon Brown stepped in. I wasn't working at that point and I watched BBC news as they followed the new cabinet walking up Downing Street. The names were totally unfamiliar, the process was totally unfamiliar. Who were these people? Did I like them? Did I know what they stood for? What came next?

And slowly the names became familiar. Their policies and foibles and fights and tiffs became familiar. And suddenly I know what's going on. Kind of. I'm still only half guessing on a lot of it, and parliamentary politics is complicated, but it's nice to feel a little more a part of the country. It makes it a little more like home.

Which is a little sad in it's own way, because no matter how much I read News24 and the M&G, it's hard to stay on top of what's going on politically in SA. I do try, but I think so much of politics is context. Have I lost my context? That remains to be seen.

It all remains to be seen.

In the long twilight

, originally uploaded by liz_isabella.

Wood blewits

Wood blewits, originally uploaded by liz_isabella.

Hanging on to the light

Every year I'm surprised by the change in light, how the day hangs on until the last possible moment.

An old song, rediscovered

Music from the wildnerness

My Zen-like Friend is off in the wilds of Devon, living the perfect life.

This is my favourite of his recent musical offerings.

You can listen to it here.

I admit it

I was HOPING for a hung parliament, just so I could see what would happen next.

It's like an experiment in parliamentary politics!

Except that the Torys' spending cuts scare me.

And I depend on the NHS quite heavily.

And, um, my job depends quite heavily on HEFCE funding.

And I worry that Nick Clegg won't be strong enough to hold off Cameron strong-arming.

Oh my God! What have I done?!

Random arguments

I was just remembering an ongoing argument we used to have with The Father when we got old enough to make our own sandwiches for school. Well, The Sister used to make sandwiches, I didn't bother. He used to get very het up about how she cut "doorstops" and "how would that look".

I wonder if he even remembers that argument.

Dear Nora Roberts

I don't know about this whole quartet thing. Savour the Moment wasn't bad. I mean, I don't think you could write a crappy book. And I was very excited to read this one, so I guess I am invested in the series. But to be honest, I'm not deep down feeling the characters. I'm curious to see what you're going to do with the last book, and I'll probably read this one again, because you are rereadable. I don't know. I just don't think this was your best.

I've got my eyes peeled for your next standalone though. Search and rescue dogs? Yeah, there's a tearjerker waiting to happen.

Don't you wish things were different?

But then nothing would be the same.

Hmmmm

The fence around my front yard is gone. When did that happen?

There are days

There are days when I can only think of
You.

There are days that begin with the thought of
You,

And end with the remembered
moments
places
glances
times
(so few, really).

(isn't that sad?).

And I talk to You in the dark.
In whispers that only my Soul can hear.

(isn't that sad?).

The September Issue

I really wanted to see The September Issue when it was in cinemas but I managed to miss it. I found it on DVD today and it was a really interesting perspective on Vogue and the world of fashion. It's not a world I tend to inhabit or find particularly interesting. What was interesting was seeing how they came up with ideas for shoots and designs, and how those ideas were carried out. I do wonder about the more editorial side though, because the film really focussed heavily on the images and designs. Although that said, isn't that the base of Vogue?

One thing that did jump out at me though was that this is a magazine driven by some insanely strong, ambitious women. I think I'd find them terrifying on a daily basis!

I really like fly on the wall documentaries, and this one was a lot of fun. It almost makes me want to buy a copy of Vogue. Almost.

Getting old

I went to a surprise party yesterday for one of my good friend's 30th birthday. Her husband invited us all to a really great restaurant and then we did the "surprise!" part and ate a lot of food and drank some really nice red wine and had champagne. And as I was sipping my champagne I realised that I was the only single person there.

In the day to day, my oneness doesn't really cross my mind to be honest, although just lately, with so much going on, and so many new discoveries I've made, and places I've gone, and great meals I've eaten, it sometimes strikes me that it would be pretty nice to share them with a plus one!

But back the restaurant, where I'm choking on my champagne. Yes, I think that it's the time in my life I'm hitting now. I really am getting old.

The joy is in the details

Waking up on a Saturday morning with the bare bones of a plan in place, knowing only that in the late afternoon there will be tea with a good friend. Now to fill in the bones. Deciding which train to take, and whether to have a cup of coffee on the journey. Selecting the two books that deserve to accompany me. Wondering if I should take my ipod, but deciding against. Planning my journey across the city, with my well-thumbed guide in hand. Working out the distances and wondering about the weather. And then setting out on a trip.

I like Satudays.

Dear Michelle Harrison

I finally read Thirteen Curses (it's been hanging around my TBR pile for weeks), and I have to say, unfortunately it's not as compelling as Thirteen Treasures.

The story starts well, but then moves around in fits and starts. Doom arrives but is speedily worked out, then doom arrives again. There's too much going in this book and I thought it served neither of the story lines well to be jammed into this one volume.

Rowan still bugged me with her weirdly adult voice and stubborn attitude, but perhaps you created her that way? In which case, well done! It worked.

I know that ultimately this is a teen book, but I think it could have done with being a little longer and a little more in depth. It's a good story and it deserved that.

At least someone finally admits that fairies are creepy little fuckers.

I'm looking forward to seeing what you'll try your hand at next.

Report back

Yes. I love my new job. I like the vibe. I like the fact that I'm learning something new. I like the fact that it's education. I like that it's editing again. I like that they're going to pay me a decent salary. I like that the campus is pretty with decent places to walk at lunch.

So:

1) I hope they extend my contract,

2) I hope it stays as interesting as it is right now.

Which way is up?

I was watching a fascinating documentary tonight on the origins of cartography, and how maps have reflected imperialism and the thirst for conquest down the ages.

One of the mapmaking techniques they focussed on was Polynesian, and they were observing that while "western" cartographers focussed on north as the dominant direction, Polynesian navigators made west their focus. The person they interviewed was saying that west makes the most sense, because everything travels to the west - the sun, the wind, the tides.

The other interesting thing he was talking about was how the original Polynesian maps didn't depend on geographical accuracy. If an island was a big deal in folklore, then it was made bigger on the map. So in order to understand the map, you needed to be part of the culture that created it.

The focal point of the maps was the canoe the navigator was in, because that was the world right there. A tiny canoe, trying to cross endless water.

Science is written in stone

Art on campus, originally uploaded by liz_isabella.

The cat whisperer

It feels like every single neighbouhod cat has come for a visit today. The black one was the bravest, he came by twice, and when I frightened him by coming into my room unexpectedly, he shot of here like a bat out of hell. The tabby glared at me from the patio. And I just looked up to see a orange and white one observing me from behind the glass doors, in a way that makes me very uncomfortable.

Perhaps they're visiting scientists and I'm of interest to them?

I think my housemates are trying to kill me

I just found one of the gas plates on in the kitchen, merrily burning away, slowly poisoning the atmosphere.

Wow, I feel safe.

Friday

The best kind of Friday. A week worked. A job well done. Time spent doing something I enjoy.

Now? The hope that it will stay good, and that nothing will come along and ruin it.

Ah yes, there's a cloud in every silver lining.

The weirdest stuff lives in my brain

Dis heerlike lente, die winter's verby;
weer nooi berg' en klowe vir jou en vir my.
Hol-la-dri-o-ha, hol-la-dri-o.
Hol-la-dri-o-ha, hol-la-dri-o!

Die bergklim is heerlik, dit hou mens gesond.
Die vroe-, vroeë môre het goud in die mond.
Hol-la-dri-o-ha, hol-la-dri-o.
Hol-la-dri-o-ha, hol-la-dri-o!

The Secret Garden

You know spring is on the way when I feel a yen to read The Secret Garden and watch the lovely movie they made of it.

There's just something about it that embodies the expectation of spring.

I think it's only now that I've experienced winter as a definite and separate and long and cold and snowy season, that I can appreciate, really appreciate, the light and life that spring brings.

Even though I miss having a spring birthday.

And where exactly have you been?

Busy. I've been very busy.

I've left Large Retailer at last and started a fantastic new job at Large University (well, it's fantastic so far, but it is only my second day). I was happy to leave Large Retailer, because I really had had enough. But, really, as unexpected deviations in my life plan go, it really turned out ok, didn't it? Decent pay, made new friends, relative freedom. And I ended on a high note, with people sad to see me go and saying nice things about me, and my shallow little heart grew two sizes. I never felt that at Magazine Purgatory until my leaving drinks, where my boss admitted that I wasn't too bad really. Gee thanks.

So now I'm at Large University and I'm excited and happy and really hoping that good things come from it. And then I can finally move out of the Hellmouth and just commute in instead!

So that's where I've been. Oh, and I've also been to Rochester and London. Rochester has the biggest secondhand bookshop in England. It's called Baggins and I'm going to have to go back for the express purpose of visiting that shop again.

Where have you been?

Sometimes I wish I could unread something

Permanently rid it from my memory, because it ruins everything that comes after.

Yo yo yo

So, The Hellmouth is getting a Yo Sushi. It opens in July. I don't know which is worse - that I'm excited we're finally getting a sushi place that isn't Pret, or that my subconcious clearly thinks that I'm still going to be here in the Seventh Circle in July.

The way home

I drove into London this weekend to see friends, of which I have more than I realise on a day to day basis. It's always a pleasant surprise when I think of it, and makes me appreciate them more.

I drove back to The Hellmouth via Epping Forest. If I ever move back to London, I think I'll find a spot there somewhere. It's the part of the city that reminds me most of Cape Town. Something about the winding road through the trees and the occasional flashes of distant hills - suddenly I'm on Rhodes Drive in my claptrap car, trundling over Constantia Nek towards Hout Bay. And then a left-hand drive, long distance lorry from Poland comes lurching across a traffic circle straight at me and I'm back in grey England.

Thank God February is over. I can breathe again.

More reasons I hate my housemates

1) They only have one conversational tone: shouting.

2) They call each other horrible, horrible names.

3) He has bratty kids who vandalise the loo.

4) In some deranged ploy to gain who knows what, they've removed all the big plates from the kitchen.

5) They keep setting the fire alarm off.

6) They stomp up and down the stairs.

7) They never stop shouting at each other.

8) They live here.

Extensions

My contract at Large Retailer has been extended to the end of March. I'm actually ok with this, because I feel less trapped I guess. I have my car now, so I don't have to funnel all my earnings into saving for that. Instead I can funnel all of it into a clear my credit card/save for deposit on my own place to rent fund.

I feel free-er, because now I can get places with precious, precious car. And I've got an interview, so I don't feel quite so hopeless about everything. So no matter what happens there (how much would I love that job though!), there will probably not be a horrible cross-over period of me earning nothing, and having to pack in with my sister or anything like that. So...hopeful, I guess, is the theme of this post.

Good thing I gave up negative thinking for Lent. And started The Feel Good Handbook. And exercising. Maybe it's all helping.

Embracing Podcasts

Since my New!Car! doesn't have a CD player, I can only listen to music via my ipod and the ipod converter. I thought I'd take full advantage and start following my favourite podcasts more closely. And since all the creativity has been beaten out of me by Large DIY Company That Is Not Argos, I'm going to list the podcasts in lieu of, you know, original thought.

- Behind the Grammar
- Books and Authors
- Classical Performance
- David Mitchell's Soapbox
- The Digested Read podcast
- A History of the World in 100 Objects
- The House of Comments
- Mark Kermode and Simon Mayo's Film Reviews
- The Parliament Podcast Channel

And who knows, maybe it'll start inspiring my writing again. I never used to feel like I'd run out of things to say. It happens more and more though!

I fear I am addicted

Early this morning I woke up in a flat panic, raced to turn on the light then checked that my wireless router was in place. I heaved a sigh of relief, and went back to sleep.

David Mitchell on the act of giving flowers

"It's as if they actually believe that what other people think of them somehow doesn't matter. I mean, I know we're all supposed to believe that. But obviously none of us actually do, and nor should we, because it does, it does matter. And the people who genuinely believe it doesn't tend to be the very people who ought to care the most about that other people think of them, because what the other people are thinking is that no, actually, I don't think the Chinese are up to something, or you should use mouthwash, or your mania for the collectivisation of soviet agriculture will surely cause the death of millions, or 40 cats is too many cats."

Rocknrolla

Not as good as Snatch.

RIP Dick Francis

Some of his books may have been a little formulaic, but they were so readable, you barely noticed. I really enjoyed his mysteries. There was always a zing, a fight to the death, and interesting heroine. You always found yourself rooting for his hero,no matter how banal the plot was. My favourites remain Driving Force and Decider, which I can, and have, read over and over again.

RIP Dick Francis.

In which we reinvent Yellow Submarine

Also with varying degrees of success.

In which we play I Spy

With varying levels of success.

Invictus

When I went to see this, people in the audience got so excited they cheered and clapped. I think that about summarises how awesome it was.

And I shall call him...um...

Not sure yet. The name has not been revealed to me.

Swept Away

The one thing I've never learned to do is not to be swept away by what I'm feeling. It was the one area of tai chi I found nearly impossible (other than embrace the tiger, return to the mountain). At the time it was because I felt like it would be cheating - that by not experiencing every single emotion I have, I was in effect burying it all away, and how could that be healthy?

Now I realise it's more about putting away your emotional reactions to your emotions (follow me here), allowing you to more carefully analyse them and see them for what they are.

But it's hard not to be swept away by despair. As hard as it is not to be swept away by happiness. And when you've felt both before lunch time, well. That's like being capsized in a storm.

At last!

Invictus has finally been released here. I can't wait to see it. Can't wait.

Close to home

Assisted suicide is something that hits a little close to home for me. I feel very close to the issue and so it makes me jumpy. Terry Pratchett has announced that he wants to be a test case for assisted suicide. He was diagnosed with Alzheimer's a few years ago. This article talks about those for and against the issue in the UK at the moment.

One thing I find really interesting about the coverage around this is that the right wing nutjobs appear not to be interested. I would fully expect the rabid right to lifers to get majorly involved in this, but instead the argument seems to focus far more on legal definitions and decisions than anything else. It's just a very interesting topic, I think.

Up in The Air

Brilliant.

That's it - just brilliant. I managed to get the book today, and I'm hoping it's not another Fight Club situation (ie movie is better than the book).

Trailers: Invictus! I can't wait to see it. It'll be the first time, I think, that I'll see a movie about an event I remember vividly.

It's complicated

It was ok - fairly amusing, with one hilarious naked Skype scene. Meryl Streep was doing her burgeoning older woman thing, but I don't think she needed to try to hard, you know? Mostly, the movie was just interior decorating porn. Seriously gorgeous set dressing happening there. It was very gilded and glowing - luminous skin and glistening eyes and decadent food and blah blah. So, I guess my review is meh? John Krasinski was really the best part.

Trailers: Crazy Heart (Jeff Bridges plays aging country singer, very intriguing) and Robin Hood (Gladiator minus the Romans and Joaquin Phoenix).

The tragedy of war

"What brought the tragedy home were the artefacts - the inscribed bibles and lucky charms.

For her, the two most poignant came from Australian soldiers. The first was a small lucky charm in the shape of a boomerang, to symbolise returning home.

The other was the return half of a railway ticket from Freemantle to Perth, intended for the soldier's journey home to his family."

From this article about identifying the unknown soldiers of the First World War.

Accepting the inevitable

I clearly have some fluffy element missing from my bloodstream, because I am on week two of reading everything Katie Fforde has ever written and am feeling better for it. My bookclub book has been abandoned in the bottom of my bag. My bedside book has been abandoned just short of the end. The book I ordered from Amazon and couldn't wait to get my hands on has not yet been touched. Instead I am wandering rural England, admiring a world of Agas, Rayburns, lumpy jumpers, amusing cats, disreputable friends and grumpy guys who always turn out all right in the end.

That's the beauty of Katie Fforde. It all turns out all right in the end.

Bye

Good bye.
Goodbye.
Bye.
Byebye.
Byebyebyebye.
Come back -
comebacktomewhenyoucan.
Because behind goodbye is
Imissyou.

Still dreaming

Although I'm making some concrete moves into the future (seriously - things are happening I hope), I'm still dreaming about the things I want. I think about my hoped for garden, with the nice field next door that houses my horse. I dream about my living room, with it's wall to wall white shelving units, lined with books. The ladder I need to reach the ones on top will be parked in a corner. The sofa and the chair probably won't match but they will be comfy. There will be thick curtains at the window, and the room will be cosy when they're closed. The little roll top desk will sit in the corner, and my laptop will live there. I will not have it in my room or on my lap. It will be in a place for Working, and I will actually use it for writing and such, not just checking TT and wandering around Facebook.

I'll have a table to eat at, and set it every day, even if it is just me eating. Because I like a table set for eating - the placemat, the plate, the knives and forks. The kitchen will call out to be cooked in - and I'll have gadgets galore. A bookshelf in the kitchen. A pantry with my stuff lined up, even though my sister would fall apart laughing at me. A full set of crockery. A couple of La Crueset dishes. An interesting project cooking on the stove. A window looking over a full garden, and herbs on the window sill.

Upstairs will have a chest on the landing. I've always wanted a big chest to store stuff in. An actual linen cupboard, with actual linen in, smelling all warm and cosy, with one of those lovely cedar pouches stored there for good measure. Two bedrooms, somewhere comfy to retreat to. A wooden sleigh bed that's begging to be slept in, a chair in the window that's begging to be read in. A bedside table that's stacked with books. A nice, tidy bathroom, with actual storage space, and an actual towel rail. Bottles with bubble bath lined up along the side - those funky little creme dispensers would do nicely. A house that's warm and cosy and mine. A garden that's small, but with secret corners that can't be seen from the house. The kind of patio that welcomes people for a braai. A corner that birds will flock to.

I want to want to get up early and ramble off into the wilderness with my dog, leaving behind a grumpy cat. I want to spend early mornings chivvying a horse around and think, gorgeous day, might go for a hack. I want to wake up on a Sunday and think - farmer's market today, better go stock up, and swing by the secondhand bookshop on the way back. I want to to be able to look around me and go, this, this is my life. These things, these things are mine. This life is what I've made, and it may not suit everyone, but damn it would make me really happy.

The Grey Lady

The Grey Lady - Sir John Everett Millais

Words of wisdom

"I'm just fed up of making lemonade, you know? I just want to moan about the lemons." - The Sister, wishing for an easy life.

Notes

I share a bathroom cabinet with two of the guys I live with (one's French and one's Italian). This evening I noticed that French guy had a little note stuck on his toothbrush, saying 'Je t'aime'. Almost makes up for the fact that I had to listen to him and girlfriend make je t'aime so loudly all weekend. Almost.

Lady in the water

Ophelia - Sir John Everett Millais

The Perfect Proposal

Yay! New Katie Fforde book due out on 10 June! That makes me all warm inside.

It's a truth universally acknowledged...

...that the grumpier I am, the more I enjoy seeing dead bodies on Silent Witness.

I haven't yet started to identify with the killers, but it's getting there.

Proof that Milton Keynes is the Hellmouth

My bus stop number is 666.

Daybreakers

Bloody, very bloody. But a nice spin on the usual vampires out to get us tale. Ethan Hawke was his usual understated self, Willem Dafoe keyed back the crazy to just plain eccentric, while Sam Neill enjoyed being evil a litte too much I think.

Humour Me

This was one of my favourite jokes when I was about 8 (and actually remains one of my favourite jokes):

What's green, hairy and very dangerous?

A horde of stampeding gooseberries.

Why, exactly, is this funny? I wish I knew. Is it the anthropomorphisation (I think I may have made that word up) of the fruit? Is it the hairiness? The danger? Is it the visual of a horde of gooseberries stampeding down a cliff? Or is it the fact that gooseberries are by their very nature peaceable fruits, so pretending they are otherwise is hilarious? Makes me smile every time though...

ON EDIT: Some googling showed up The Dangerous Brothers and the origin of the gooseberry jokes. You learn something new every day.

Random Thought

Do you think that when Jesus was getting into trouble at home, shovelling in his food or messing everywhere, Mary said to him: "What? Were you born in a barn?" And he was all: "Um...yes?"

Croupier

Clive Owen is much hotter now. That is my entirely shallow review.

Dear Cormac McCarthy

You make me want to go out and prevent your vision from becoming reality. But I fear the inevitability of a world bereft of everything but a few manmade objects. No flora, no fauna. No colour, no weather. Just grey ash and a human race spiralling into depravity. But the final chapter. There's hope there, I think. The Road could be a road to anywhere.

Books Books Books

More preciouses, purchased from Foyles on Charing Cross Road:

1) Silverthorn - Raymond E Feist
2) Dead Heat - Dick Francis and Felix Francis
3) Busman's Holiday - Dorothy L Sayers
4) The Road - Cormac McCarthy

The Lion King

We went to see The Lion King on stage over the weekend. My zen-like friend had gone on about it, and H and I needed to see something amazing, and it definitely fit the bill! The costumes are just incredible. The choreography is amazing. The music just made me wail - so homesick making.

It should be inane - people prancing about on stage, wearing hats with animals on them. But, it works. And it works fantastically.

Avatar

Finally got around to seeing this (and yes, I saw it in 3D). I was initially keen to try it (Empire has been hyping all year), but when the trailer actually hit I was less than impressed. But I dutifully went to see it anyway, and I could totally take it or leave it. First of all - insanely long. I think a tighter story line would have served Cameron's ideas much better. And wow there are a lot of ideas. Definitely the best part was seeing the complexity of the culture. That level of detail was very rewarding. But the main theme (culture with intense connection to nature gets consistently screwed over by capitalist pigs wearing military uniforms, until nature delivers an arse kicking) is very much an idea of the moment, and nothing particularly new.

So what did I like? First of all, the idea of an Avatar. That throws up lots of wonderful ideas about making yourself part of a culture. Is it cheating to wear that blatant a mask? The scientists are just "demons, an empty shell" - what makes them truly part of the people? I know we get our answer at the end, but I still felt a little like it was false pretences. Very nifty conceit though.

The second thing I liked was very small, but it was a nice touch. The further Sully gets involved with the people, the more his human appearance changes. His hair gets longer, he gets thinner. The body starts to reflect the mind. I was hoping that his Avatar would just suddenly take over, making it a true mental leap, but the connection to the planet makes sense.

I'm going to go out on a limb here and say I don't like the 3D effect. Mostly because it gave me a headache, but also because I found it quite jarring. One of my favourite things about seeing movies in a cinema is that I get completely consumed. The 3D "experience" kept jolting me out of the story, and I didn't appreciate it.

So. You can stone me now if you want. I don't mind.

Balm for the soul

Red wine and chat with a good friend.

Dear Marian Keyes

Hmmmmmm. Marian, I have to say, your last couple of books have smacked of bitterness. They've been really good reads. But bitter enough to curdle milk.

love and kisses

Me

It's Quite An Odd Thing

If you think about it, water falling from the sky in the form of flakes, so many that the ground is covered in 20cm of the stuff - it's quite weird.

White Noise

I like silence, the peaceful echo of nothing, the emptiness of a quiet room. But there are days when I restlessly go from thing to thing, from DVD player to laptop to CD player to TV, wanting some kind of sound, any kind of sound, to fill the void.

Grotty Handbag Tells All

I was digging through my capacious handbag tonight, clearing out the grime in preparation for adding my Brand New Diary and Brand New Address Book to the mix. Am I the only one who sometimes picks through their stuff, pretending to be a detective?

Flicking through the pages of a largely empty diary, except for cryptic notations such as M:@8:30. Address book – also largely empty. Was she a sad old bird? Well no sir, says the PI's assistant. There's a receipt for WH Smith right here. Seems she bought that address book today. Interesting, says the PI. He digs deeper into the bag, wincing slightly as he is stabbed in the finger. He pulls out a wire keyring, eyeing the awkward jagged edge balefully. No car, he says. Well, says the assistant, pulling out a battered security pass. She works at Homebase, what do you expect? But she does like the Guardian. There are at least two here. Both crosswords semi-completed. She wasn't very good at the cryptics though.

Finally, they hit paydirt – coins and the dusty remains of some biscuits that escaped their baggie. The PI touches the 10p piece lightly to his tongue. Yes, he mumbles. Yes? asks the assistant. Yes, he answers. Definitely shortbread.

Books Books Books

Latest additions:

1) The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo - Stieg Larsson (bought for book club, and we start discussing on the 15th, so I'd better get cracking)

2) The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold (I was momentarily blinded by Waterstone's 3 for 2 sticker and bought - horror of horrors - a movie tie-ing cover)

3) Company of Liars - Karen Maitland (Did I mention there was a 3 for 2 deal on? It's about the plague and I'm sure I read a review of it. Seems interesting enough)

The Game is Afoot

Even legendary Guy Ritchie hater Mark Kermode liked Sherlock Holmes. It can't really be called anything but a “cracking film”. A great script, excellent chemistry between Robert Downey Jr and Jude Law, and some kick-ass fight scenes made up for a slightly watery plot.

The plot was a bit bog-standard Victorian England – secret society, magical influence – but the visuals of Victorian England were super. Smoky, mysterious, busy – really evocative.

Robert Downey Jr was really excellent as the self-destructive, drug addicted detective. Clever, acerbic, and brutally jealous of Watson's fiance. Jude Law brought real energy to Watson's character (I know, I couldn't believe it either). Watson has tended to be portrayed as an idiot. But Arthur Conan Doyle wrote him as an intelligent and heroic man, equal to Holmes as a doctor, if not as a brilliantly deductive detective. It was great to see him give Holmes the kick in the arse he so regularly needs, to see his gambling, daring side, and also to see that he is as keen on getting into trouble as his partner his. Their byplay was easily the best part of the movie.

The fight scenes were really interesting – CSI style with a Holmes twist. Listening to him plot how was going to thump someone and then watching him execute it was a great plot device and well used.

Typical of Guy Ritchie movies – great supporting cast by English actors. Managed to spot Eddie Marsan as Inspector Lastrade (last seen playing the snorting Pancks in Little Dorrit) and William Houston as Constable Clark (last seen playing the yummy and heroic Dr Millais Culpin in Casualty 1909).

So, two very enthusiastic thumbs up. Amusing, adventurous – I liked Sherlock Holmes a lot.

Trailers: Book of Eli (Denzel Washington in badass mode, with a religious twist – ooooooh) and The Lovely Bones (based on the book, which I haven't read yet).

Watch It Round Up 2009

When I moved over to the UK, I had to give up my precious Ster Kinekor card, and leave behind Half Price Tuesdays. For more than a year I saw no movies at the cinema, and barely watched anything on DVD. It was a painful, painful time. But this year I was saved by Cineworld's Unlimited Card. I love it - you can go see as many movies as you like for £13 a month. It's changed my life. Seriously. Those who know me personally can attest to that fact. Anyway.

It was a pretty good year for movies all round I thought (I rediscovered watching movies on DVD as well - thank you LoveFilm! And a better paying job!). Favourites definitely included Slumdog Millionaire, Doubt, Mullholland Dr, True Romance, Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, Where The Wild Things Are, District 9 and The Imaginarium of Dr Parnassis.

I seemed to gravitate towards complicated psychological dramas, and also watched more documentaries than I realised. Nothing like a bit of pain and reality!

A good year.

Read It Round Up 2009

I managed to beat 2008's total by about 10, with my final total of new books read coming in at 79. I'm so proud.

There are a lot of Nora Roberts and Katie Fforde books on the list again this year, but at the end of 2008 I promised I would try to read more "classics", and by classics I mean landmark novels, short stories and novellas. I loved Little Dorrit, and she really managed to get me over my Fear of Dickens. I also really enjoyed Revolutionary Road, The Book Thief, The Uncommon Reader and the Night Watch series. I was probably only truly disappointed by one book in 2009, and that was The Other Boleyn Girl. Philippa Gregory is definitely not for me.

What I would like to do in 2010 is read more Dickens and more Thomas Hardy. I'd also like to read as much Haruki Murakami as possible. I'm hoping to write a really good Dear Author entry for each new book I read as well.

But a good year's reading all round. I was in Waterstones the day before yesterday and as I wandered the stacks I was suffused with a feeling of satisfaction. Could I have chosen a better hobby? Never!